Excerpt
from my journal
Saturday,
November 16, 2019
Watched a
movie yesterday titled, “I’ll See You in My Dreams,” mostly because I saw Sam
Elliot was in it, HA! Also, Blythe
Danner, who by the way, did an excellent job portraying her character (so as
not to discredit the female lead and let the “Sam Elliot” prejudice outshine her
talent.)
The movie
made quite an impact on me. Not a “WOW,
what an action packed, computer graphics poster child” kind of impact but a “Holy
Buckets I Get It” kind of impact.
So, in a teeny-tiny nutshell, here's the plot:
Blythe Danner’s
character (Carol) is an attractive woman in her mid 60’s, she’s been widowed 20
years, retired, financially comfortable and has created a “safe” life that
includes a group of widowed girlfriends who live in a “retirement community”
which she refuses to move to.
The 1st
“hook” in the movie’s beginning, that immediately snagged me, was when Carol
realized that her 14 year-old yellow lab, Hazel,
was at life’s end and it was time for her to help her four-legged companion cross
over. OK, to some family and friends, you
know why this part had me sobbing right off
the bat and immediately made me realize this was a movie, and a message,
with my name on it.
So, where’s
the impact?
As the movie
progresses, Carol steps outside her comfort zone and goes to a local bar, that
features karaoke, with the young and handsome guy who cleans her pool. What motivated this? Carol shared with this young, handsome man (while
he was doing his pool cleaning duties) that she was a singer in her youth, and
sang in The Village, in New York City, in the 60’s. He’s impressed and wants to hear her
sing.
He sings, he
sucks (he’s a struggling song writer.)
She sings and
she’s amazing!
He asks her, “When
did you quit singing?” She looks a
bit gut-punched, pauses and then replies,
“I don’t know. I just woke up one
morning and I had quit.”
It
seems Carol got married, had a daughter and did the “responsible” things,
became a teacher, a reading teacher, “and whatever else nobody else wanted to
teach,” to pay the bills, buy a house, blah, blah, blah….
Then her
attorney husband gets killed in a plane crash, she retires and here she is.
I have to
add, Carol also meets (and falls for) Sam Elliot (Bill), who also lives in the retirement
community. She takes the plunge and sleeps
with him, MASSIVE out-of-her-comfort-zone world! Then, out of the freekin’ blue, before she
can see him again, Sam/Bill dies! What?? First “Hazel” and now Sam/Bill! Good God, where’s the justice in that?!
OK, that’s
Sam Elliot’s small role in this plot that sucked me in like bees to a honey pot. Back to my point….
“I just woke up one
morning and I had quit.” That one statement hit me like a ton of
bricks.
Life is like that.
You just wake up one morning and realize that the one thing you were
REALLY good at, that one thing YOU were passionate about, that One Thing, you
quit doing, because bills needed to be paid and kids needed to be raised and,
and, and….
Then you’re
starin’ down the barrel of a sawed off Life you thought was a bit longer and
BANG! Time’s up! It doesn’t matter if you saved all your
receipts, the original boxes, purchased the extended warranty plans and
followed the instruction manuals to the “T”.
There are no refunds, no 1-800 customer service complaint numbers or bad
review websites that will result in a “let me do that again” outcome.
I’m taken
aback by the swiftness of Life and the way it can slip and slide from youthful
ignorance (or should I say inexperience) to slam-bam-thank-you- ma’am hard core
reality, wiping out the act of practicing those natural talents that brought us
such joy.
What did you
wake up realizing you quit doing?
What passion
did you lock away when “duty” called?
You don’t
need to change the world, you just need to grab on, hold tight and just RIDE
that passion.
Even if you
have to go back to using training wheels, just ride, until the tread’s worn
smooth, the battery’s stone-cold dead and the GPS is showing you a route that
ends up somewhere over the rainbow (the Rainbow Bridge in My World.)
Yeah, I can
hear the groans and excuses, BUT I don’t have the money, the time, good enough
health……
I once said, “I
was born a lottery winner! I was born
white and American!” Now, even
though the politically correct police are on my tail for that statement, it’s
My Truth and I’m sticking to it! There
are more opportunities to “make it work” in the good ol’ U S of A than anywhere
else on the planet. People die every day
seeking the gifts I was given by virtue of my birth and I shall never take
that, or the freedoms it offers me, for granted.
I don’t need
to write a novel that skyrockets me to the fame level of John Steinbeck or
produce a podcast that rivals Mike Rowe but I can sit down and pound out an amateur blog, scribble a journal entry onto college ruled notebook paper, or really
get my hands dirty, and create a wooden sign for a friend that honors a loved
one at Christmas.
Not world
peace, but acts of Self Kindness that balance the Spirit and sooth the Soul.
What a
different world it would be if everyone could meet in that place.
For now, it’s
all I can do to journey there myself from time to time.
I’ll keep the
light on, save you a spot and keep an eye out for ya all.
P.S. – Just so
ya know, all the above ain’t easy. If
you’re lookin’ for easy don’t waste your time or energy. I’m cleaning homes, yes scrubbing other old folks’
toilets, to pay for my travel passions this coming summer. A “get-‘er-done” attitude is required.
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